last sat night went out with my family, bf and relatives to eat after that went to play bowling. nowadays my mum likes to go out with us until mid night. she also once joined us to sing k at mid night. last time she don't like to go out. after playing bowling, we went to mac to eat. my mum sundenly asked me my dad opened a shop at KL and asked me whether i want to stay there for 5 years or not. she said she's serious. i said yes readily. she said if i want to go there, she will help me resgister and sign contract for 5 years and can't come back to singapore for 5 years. my mum will accomapny me to go KL for 2 months after that leave me there alone for 5 years. after eating, dear and i went to catch mid night show. after that, we went to my blk downstair's playground that we used to hang out to chat about KL thingy. we both cried. i can't bear apart with my bf. we also talk about about those times when we 1st just got together. we made promises with each other. the next day, my mum asked me whether if i really want to go KL. she asked me to reconsider. she also suggested that i can rent a stall in singapore to do a small business. i wanna go KL but i can't bear apart with my bf. i wanna see him ORD in october, wanna go taiwan with my family and bf in december, wanna celebrate CNY with family and bf every year, wanna celebrate birthday together with bf every february...

health is getting weaker. fall sick every month. not minor sickness, but major sickness. last time i seldom fall sick, once every year. last week just admitted to NUH. i woke up in the morning and went to toilet. vomited and having diarrhoea. my head spinned like hell. i knew im going to faint, i quickly feel where's the lock and open it. it's too late to fall to the bed and i fainted once i stepped out of the toilet.my mum quickily pulled me to lean against the bed. she used meducated oil to rub my face. sundenly my whole body numb. i woke up and my mum helped me measure my blood pressure. i got low blood pressure, damn low. i fainted again. my mum called my dad again and he asked my mum to call ambulance but she said she scared of ambulance. her voice like wanna cry. in the end took cab to NUH. i cried very loud and keep saying i don't want injection. i kept looking at the needle. the nurse, doctor and my mum pulled my hand. im dread of injection. the doctor asked me want drip or not i said i don't want. they kept saying i always didn't eat that's why always fainted but i got eat. now my mum keep buying a lot of food for me to eat and chicken essence to nourish my blood.