should i give up? it's been almost 2 weeks. i really don't wish to keep crying everyday. there's one time i cried until i can't see. im very tired. i don't want to keep thinking about the past memories. i never love someone so deeply before. how i wish we never meet before. i know everything is too late. i've tired to change but i don't think i can salvage this releationship anymore. i really regretted for not expressing out my love to him, regretted for not cherish him. my attitude really sux. seriously, i hate myself for being like that. how i wish i can turn back the time and i won't let history repeated itself but i think it's too late. i always live with full of regrets. he once told me he will always be together with me no matter what. promises are meant to be broken. i should'nt have trust guy's words again. im really a stupid fool. at first i thought i had found someone who really loves me and dotes on me, din'nt expect everything to turn out like that. he given up on our releationship so easily. i really lost faith in love. im always a failure in releationship. i damn envy those sweet couples, often go out together and have planned some programmes. unlike us, seldom go out together. even if we go out will always with others or a group of friends, very seldom is we go out just only both of us, i think only one or two times? and those couples will go out together to celebrate their monthly anniversary and give them surprise? or do something to make them feel touched? sometimes i heard from my friends what they have done i seriously damn envy and jealous. they are so romantic and make me wanna cry. i don't want to live in agony everyday, how i wish i have amnesia. how to get amnesia? bang my head on the wall? or get bang by a car? i really feel damn miserable. very xin ku. he will always be the one and only person who i truly love in my heart. i really love him a lot. i really don't know what to do. i would'nt dare to think of him patching back with me. im not a good gf...
thanks everyone who have been trying to help me and sorry for being hot tempered nowadays.
该死的记忆
