just now looking back at all the messages in my phone, i cried again. i think back of the past again. zixin that time helped me to delete all the messages, i pressed cancel cos i can't bear to delete.this time i have deleted it, but damn heart ache. if i don't delete, i will be even more heart ache when i look back at all the messages. no point keeping all those messages already. he's the one who gave up on the releationship, i must also let go. since he ask for break up so readily, this shows that he doesn't really loves me. until now, i still can't stop crying every night. i just can't stop thinking about the past. i really damn hate myself!!!!!!!!!!!!! arghh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why must i be so sentimental?????!!!!!!!!!!! darn it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it's driving me crazy, seriously!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i rather let it turn into hatred.